Carbless Happiness

Donald E. Clark 1949-1996
He was a wonderful, kind, strict, funny, hardworking dad. He was also agreat friend, great mechanic, kind neighbor, and a gentle giant. I amgrateful to have had him as my Dad and I am amazed at how well he knew me.My Dad taught me how to change the oil, repair a transmission and how towork hard. But he also taught me the importance of reading the scriptures,being a good listener and being kind. I, of course, took all of that forgranted. I have his journal which helps a bit. I only have a few picturesbut I have lots of wonderful memories.

It will be 13 years on Jan 7th since his death and I have not stoppedthinking about him. Everyday the pain is as raw as that first day withouthim. I believe that we are an eternal family, I will see him again. Butuntil then I will long to hear his voice, to feel his reassuring hand uponmy shoulder and to see his great smile. I know he would have loved myhusband and my children. I hope he would have been proud of my life and thechoices I have made. But above all I just wish I could have seen his face onmy important days.

Monday, October 21st would have been my Dad's 59th birthday. I still love him so much.

It is the last day of Summer and I wanted to share my kids' smiles with you. We have been through a lot of emotions and it hasn't all been easy. But check out the happiness that these kids shared the last few months.

These kids are amazing. Enough said!!! AMAZING!!!!

So after three weeks of working out, trying new activites ie: pilates and fitness yoga, I am still having a hard time dealing with the diet restrictions. I know it would help lose the unwanted weight, but it is a struggle. But I am determined to figure it out. I have been cranky, unreasonable and VERY sleepy and I tend to blame it on all the dieting/working out. But is it? Anyone have any experience with these feelings and Atkins? Am I alone? (I'd raise my hand but I know I don't technically count on questions like these.).

I wonder if I am overtly frustrated because of the weight issues or just my life in general. Don’t get me wrong, life is great, kids are great, my marriage is AWESOME. But I am so overwhelmed and frustrated and not being able to get anything accomplished around the house, going to school and this new goal of weight loss is just ONE MORE THING. So I wonder, does it ever become easier? Or is it just the weather? I hope it is the fact that the kids are cyclones of fun chaos and the cold weather (Cyclones...that's great! They are cyclones, sometimes cyclones of fun and sometimes not so much.). I just hope we get a warm, sunny day soon!!!

Or maybe, just maybe, Matt is right, the hot tub would solve a host of problems(Um...okay, I'll keep it clean, my dear.). HAHA!! I love that man! ☺